下学期的时候还有一个任务,找房子。学校附近的房子基本上都是租给学生的,租期都跟着学期走。所以保险起见最晚最晚春季就应该要找好秋季的房子了。
6 G( L2 d# z# t) X& o7 }0 `7 E& j之前不是没跟Leo讨论过这个问题,基本都被他以太忙不急为由不了了之。我跟当时自己的室友关系挺好,室友也常常见到Leo,曾表示如果Leo愿意搬家的话可以一起去找个三人间。所以无论如何我还有备选,也就随他了。我猜Leo跟现在的室友可能也是差不多的状态。5 l+ E0 P. @, d1 m- I4 U9 n9 w3 S
结果某次去他家浪的时候再次碰到他神出鬼没的商科室友,聊了会儿,谈到这个话题,他室友直接爆出惊天大瓜,说刚刚收到兄弟会的入会邀请,下学期估计得搬去和兄弟们住了。他室友说这事儿的时候我一直偷偷看Leo,这小子耸耸肩,看起来竟仿佛毫无波澜。难道我之前猜错了?
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( F1 g5 u2 q0 d3 A% v7 @结果后续Leo依然没有要主动讨论这件事儿的意思。进他房间那会儿我想说嘿嘿这回该他急了吧,敌不动我不动。结果敌人淡定得令人发指,还是那个套餐组合,先用投影看动漫,再帮他按摩。按的时候仍在在腰那儿停留良久,打着圈儿在那一块儿用力。实在好奇这腰是怎么回事,便试探着问:1 _# M6 f, I, L+ y/ c! a4 ]$ @
"Leo what's up with your back around here? Are these the commonly strained muscles in hockey? I googled common hockey injuries and it seems like people usually tend to have more problems in the lower bodies. But this is around the core area so I don't know"% ]% p$ h# X" _5 W& S
Leo头转过来这边,语调有些戏谑:2 u+ n& h) D# [
“You googled it?"
; q4 L: x7 h3 B/ ?"Oh I didn't mean to probe. Just genuinely curious because something does seem kinda off right here. Wondering if I can better help"斟酌着说,但这是实话。
* Z& g; H7 j6 SLeo没有回答,就这么饶有兴致地看着我。每次被这么看着我都心里发毛,好像心里想的事情都被看光了。我把眼睛挪开,继续帮他按:" y9 P9 i7 W/ l: G% f4 E+ d
“Sorry I probably shouldn't have asked. Won't happen a-"4 y+ f" O9 {' i6 @3 A; A
"No you're fine"Leo轻声打断我:“Remember the wild skating accident I talked about before? This took place back then. That lake was among the first to freeze over, so it had quite a bit of bubbles and cracks, things not ideal for skating. But a freshly frozen lake was so irresistible, that I decided to try it anyways."! l3 q5 q# a' Q" U4 I" c( ?
停顿了一下,仿佛在回忆:
* R7 _/ }) z* G0 P" T+ n5 n1 Z* G% s"It started off better than I expected, a little bumpy yes, but generally very doable. I stayed pretty alert in the beginning, but kinda let down my guard after a bit of indulging myself without issues. And then shits happened - I got my blade wedged in a sizeable crevice. So I fell, on my back, which I had not done for years. Worse yet, I fell in this meticulous way where I strained my back so bad, that I couldn't even pull myself up."
8 w4 y+ _% G5 n/ p5 n"You went there alone didn't you?"我用大拇指在腰那儿打转,看Leo的反应他好像最爱这个方式,只是真的有点费拇指。& o4 F& h" N" f6 `4 t# W+ j; t
"Yea. I skipped school for that and my friends didn't like that idea. I was a bit of a rebel back then, didn't know any better. Public education was way too easy, you know, at least for most Asian kids with strict upbringings. I hated sitting through classes listening to teachers mumbling about stuffs I had learned years before, so I skipped classes on a regular basis, almost to the point of expulsion. My friends would join me in the beginning, but backed off after being told no. I guess unlike me, they do listen to their parents"
/ |+ m# k, Q4 h5 I"I can totally see you blowing off classes, even now in college. To be honest I have been kinda surprised that you haven't missed more. So you stopped missing class after that?"想到Leo平常的学习状态,我轻轻笑了笑,问道。
, P4 |2 { H' S: Q1 j$ Z"Yup. I mean I learned it the hard way. That incident costed me 3 months of PT. And I almost felt a huge relief when I was finally able to go back to school. Now that I think about it, my attendance record was so atrocious that I probably would have trouble graduating if I had not been through that"Leo也笑了笑,同时还打了个哈欠。; \, V7 h- f& Y. o' V
“But does this help? You fell asleep the first time I did it"1 k8 r# ]* I* f! f& F/ O! ^! [/ x% u X
“It probably doesn't do much in the grand scheme of things, but it does give out a special sensation every time you press there like that"
- E) x* ?" o# J# r! q. t"What kind of sensation?"我原本真的就是顺着他的话,随口问问。
, v) _, {% |- T8 o% R, M( U结果Leo好一会儿没回话,我不解,停下手上的动作,朝他看去。只见黑暗中Leo目光灼灼地看着我,那架势仿佛要把我钉在墙上。我背脊一凉,Leo的一只手忽然朝我伸出来,搭上我的脖子,用力一带。完全没料到有这一出,猝不及防下我直接翻倒在床的另外一侧。刚想起来,肩膀被Leo一手按下,同时抬腿跨在我身体两侧。
5 @ _4 }5 S) K V“Leo wha-"本想推开他,结果手碰到鼓鼓一包,小Leo精神抖擞的,在宽松的睡裤下几乎无遮无掩,整个轮廓清晰明了。手像被烫到一样拿开,后半句话登时说不出来了。+ i" ^5 H+ b4 n1 D
我抬起头,黑暗中看不清Leo的表情,只看到一双大大的眼睛和逐渐靠近的黑影。我从没见过这样的他,手下意识地挡在眼睛前面。视觉关机后其他感官灵敏度直接拉满,感觉心脏跳得飞快,下体也快要充血了。结果过了许久也没什么动静,正想要不要把手拿开,就听到了他的声音:) z; ?% R; u8 B
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这句话几乎是贴着耳边说的,吹过来的风是温热的,带着他的气息,酥麻的感觉仿佛能从耳朵传到心尖。气泡音就像一串水滴落在大大的木碗里,滴滴清脆,绵长悠远。
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" o0 @- h/ {' y! R6 O$ t说完这句话Leo就从我身上离开了,瞬间感到身子一轻。我疑惑地把手拿开,看到Leo已经好整以暇地坐在床的另外一边,满脸坏笑地看着我。我终于想起来刚刚发生了什么,蹭一下坐起来,朝他那边扑过去,我想揍人!!
! f8 B" o7 M1 v( oLeo在床上笑得直打滚,我捶了几拳,终归是不舍得下重手。感觉再折腾下去不知道会搞出什么名堂来,我一脸窘迫地下床,决定换衣服裤子走人:
/ a+ w/ t3 Z" T$ d; c“I am going back now"
0 Z# T& Y* }$ M! t6 i3 S"I'll walk with you"Leo笑够了,也从床上起来。
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路上的雪终于冻硬了,不再泥泞不堪,好走了许多。Leo好像心情很好,路上居然哼起了小曲,认识他这么久尚属首次。至今也不知道那是什么曲子,可能就是Leo荒腔走板随性而来。声音浑厚悠远,不知道是曲子还是人的缘故,刚刚耳朵的那阵酥麻好像又回来了。今晚月亮很亮,我偷偷看一眼Leo,月光如水银般泻下,连发梢都染上了一层银色的光晕,像文艺复兴的油画。
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他又是送我到半程,拍拍肩膀说明天见。我忍不住叫住他,问:
) u- `3 v9 f+ Y6 ?) ?! \“Hey Leo. Do you have a housing plan for next year?"8 c# c+ i2 K, t+ E! P/ F
"What about it?"他停下脚步。
4 m9 D% \1 k8 b“I mean, you can come live with us. I have a roommate and he said he'd be ok moving to a 3 bedroom if you wanted to join us" V5 F" ^7 t) Z# v2 r
"But why would I wanna do that?"
7 q, r. P1 y! I1 W1 J- G; b我没料到他会这样问,想了想,说:
* \- B/ E# X( p"The rent could be a bit lower"/ n2 S( {3 ~. ]% b% g8 {& R& b
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"Rent is cheap. For couple hundred dollars a month I can get a studio all to myself. No big deal"
) a# w; Y7 A3 M9 a"Eghhh but we could avoid a lot of walking like this if we lived together no?"/ X6 V& Y5 X9 z) D. T8 u! {
"I'm sure I can find something close to your place. Even your apartment has some studios right?"1 ?& t9 H: {& j: p
我抓抓头,怎么这么困难。结果还没等我再说话,Leo摆摆手,潇洒地走了:
% q8 Z. J2 t3 p9 P9 y( h% E6 ]1 O“I'll think about it. See you tomorrow"
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& h1 P0 C+ N8 o+ Q回到家,我掏出手机,跟Leo报备:1 x0 ]+ f$ j7 B( V2 L% ?" w
“Home"
! }5 o& s2 s0 M过了一会儿Leo回:5 d/ m9 H- y) m( A' \3 N, U4 l5 X3 b- E
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我对着手机发了会儿呆。其实刚刚Leo临走前我就猜到了他想听什么答案,只是还没来得及说。不过以我的性子要当面讲估计够呛。定了定神,我跟他说:7 k9 h5 c' t6 i; h
"Leo I really want to live with you. I think you probably know that too. If you don't have other plans set in stone yet please keep this in mind. Coming from your little brother Dustin"
: I, l% E( |& O- Z印象中这是我第一次提这件事,发完以后脸都在发烧。当下发誓如果他要敢说I'll think about it之类的立马跟他绝交。
: E0 W; K; n8 h) O+ i B刷好牙后回来看,手机里躺着Leo的消息:
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