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今天和一个法国老头子聊天，这个老头子说的还很有意思，贴出来看看。
You are now talking with homealone
<C24_Paris> salut
<homealone> Salut mec
<homealone> Tu savais que je parle Français?
<C24_Paris> I saw you said you are in france
<C24_Paris> tu es ou? as guel age?
<homealone> 40 ans, près Toulouse
<homealone> Toi 24?
<C24_Paris> yes
<C24_Paris> but I am not native french. I was born in china and grew up in sweden
<C24_Paris> how is toulouse, I never been there
<homealone> Okay, and now you're in Paris?
<C24_Paris> yes
<homealone> I don't live in the city. It's kinda scary
<homealone> Dirty, loud, aggressive
<C24_Paris> scary? for what?
<C24_Paris> really? I thought Paris is the worst place in the world
<homealone> Because of previous line. Maybe. Big cities are OK if there's the sea and a beach, otherwise they're kind of oppresssing.
<homealone> Do you know the Marais in Paris?
<C24_Paris> yes, I went there almost every weekend at my first arrival, but now I don't go there anymore
<homealone> Uhuh. I've been there quite a lot years ago.
<C24_Paris> you find there interesting?
<homealone> What was always interesting about the gayscene to me was the possibility to meet men. In places like the Marais, it is CERTAIN that one will see at least quite a few attractive men. Therefore I liked going there
<C24_Paris> just seeing? but I find french people don't talk to strangers, unless the drunk ones.
<homealone> Well, seeing is obviously only stage one, isn't it?
<C24_Paris> I don't really like the bars in marais, but I do like some gay clubs, there are really hot boys
<homealone> yeah...
<C24_Paris> so you normally go there looking for sex?
<homealone> No, I haven't been in the gayscene since ages, many years
<homealone> I'm a hermit now
<C24_Paris> why?
<homealone> Because gay cruising and gay life in general are very absorbing and easily take on addictive patterns
<homealone> Furthermore, gay sex is a learning trajectory that is very exciting...
<homealone> ...in the discovery phase but soon becomes problematic for a large number of reasons.
<homealone> I kinda stopped it naturally, but would kinda like to meet a guy again
<C24_Paris> I kind of agree with you actually, about the addictive pattern
<C24_Paris> you are top or bottom?
<homealone> It's extremely addictive cos you can get INSTANT intereactivity with another human being with the promise of having a lot of needs satisfied instantly. However, all this much relies on fantasy and little on reality and REAL relationality
<homealone> It's basically about using each other for one's direct purposes
<homealone> I was kinda in between
<C24_Paris> exactly, but we always need someone for such instant needs, isn't it?
<homealone> One wants until awareness becomes strong enough that such wants make us weaker
<C24_Paris> I can't get you, or I don't realise what you said
<C24_Paris> by the way, what do you do in your life?
<homealone> Well you can come to a point where you feel that such a need. Oh, I'm not doing much really, professionally.
<homealone> *that such a need must be conquered
<C24_Paris> but find a guy to fuck is also a way to conquer such desire, isn't itå
<C24_Paris> isn't it?
<homealone> Maybe. I've decided that it needs to be more significant on more levels. I'm not judging those who basically fuck one night stands cos I've been there myself and found I didn't want to go on with it.
<C24_Paris> I see
<C24_Paris> I find it very interesting what you said
<C24_Paris> I'd like to add you on my skype, do you have?
<homealone> Unfortunately I don't have
<C24_Paris> how is the single life at your age?
<homealone> Well, let's see..I don't know how much you understand about the world...
<homealone> You are basically being socialized into a certai mindframe, of being a very busy little human resource...
<homealone> ...who finds compensation for his efforts in little pleasures, shopping, food and of course sex
<homealone> When you really understand how this game works...
<homealone> ...and what kind of psychological organization it requires, and what is REALLY going on in the world...
<homealone> ...then you need to move to deeper levels of feeling, understanding
<homealone> These deeper levels exclude frivolous sex encounters
<homealone> ...because they're damaging
<homealone> People aren't meat for consumption, unless they TURN THEMSELVES into it
<homealone> It isn't at easy as it seems to have sex, HEALTHY sex, and love. I personally want that or nothing.
<C24_Paris> yes, I have long way to go, But at this moment, I really enjoying my age :) |
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发表于 2013-5-13 03:43
